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Well I wasn’t gonna really talk about my culture ethnicity wise, but sports wise. Although I will say one thing ethnicity wise because, the question I get asked a lot is what is my ethnicity. So, I am Mexican and 25% Hawaiian. Yes, I am Hawaiian and yes my name is Hawaiian lol.

Anyways, now I will tell you my culture sports wise. I play volleyball, and I have been playing with majority of the girls since I was in 8th grade. I haven’t just been playing with them during school volleyball, but also club volleyball. So they aren’t just any group of girls, they are considered family. I will never forget all the memories we’ve had on the bus and all the little insiders we all had. I forgot to mention all the times we’ve complained for having to run around the whole block during the summer for conditioning, mind you we were being timed! Or having to run up and down stairs of McDermott during club volleyball. Ughhh just by typing this i’m already getting sick! OMG I most definitely cannot forget the time we had to run 22 suicides in club volleyball for missing serves. YES 22 suicides!!!!! (not exaggerating at all, this is 100% true!) That was absolutely the worst day ever.

Although I would not trade those memories for the world (probably just the 22 suicides but other than that nah lol) I grew up with these girls, we’ve all watched each other change, grow, and become the people we are today. I’m so grateful to have a team where we all act like family with each other because, you see some teams where they all hate each other and go against each other instead of working together, and for my team i’m blessed to say that we are a family.

So, we’re now onto blog 3. Hmm what are my needs and motives? Well what I really need is for someone to take all this stress off of me lol!!

Something that I honestly truly need is happiness or something exciting to happen in my life, and no I am not kidding. I feel as of right now i’m just going with the flow, Idk what I feel to be honest. Just nothing excites me right now, i’m not sad (or I think i’m not? lol) but i’m not really happy either I feel like i’m just whatever’s about everything right now, like i’m just kinda there.

Although something that is motivating to me right now is reading poem books, or even bible verses. Right now the 2 poem books I read every night is “Milk and Honey” and “I love my love.” As I was saying in my last post that I have trouble with self confidence, these two books help motivate me to love myself and have confidence in myself. They talk about loving yourself and accepting yourself for who you are (also about boy problems if you’re having any.) The one bible verse I absolutely love is “I know the Lord is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me.” This verse motivates me because it teaches me to not be afraid. It shows me that he is protecting me, and that wherever i’m at or whatever i’m doing he is watching over me, so there is nothing to be scared of because I will always have my “personal bodyguard” (It’s what I like to call it lol.)

Something that is also a need/motive to me is, of course my family. They always motivate me to be a good person, and to also be better than I was the day before. Something my parents have always told me was “Don’t ever lower your standards.” My family always supports me in what I do, don’t get me wrong we don’t always see eye to eye but they have always accepted and supported the decisions I made, in school, sports, or life in general and for that I will always be grateful and cherish the family I have.

So here I am, again, about to start on my 2nd blog except this blog is going to be deep and a little more out of my comfort zone than what I talked about in my 1st blog. So as my mom would always tell me “God made each and every one of us different,” she is right all of us are different in a variety of ways. We all react differently to a situation, we handle things differently, and we all are unique in a different way. Isn’t it just crazy how God made us all different whether it be a huge difference, or the smallest difference ever?

Each day I learn something new about myself, as for today, I learned what my personality type is. I am an ISTP which stands for “Introverted Sensing Thinking Perceiving.” If i say so myself, my personality type is very accurate. One of my personality types is, being a good listener and always being there for people. If you’re going through something and just need someone to talk to i’m always there to listen and comfort, although some may not do the same for me, I don’t care because my feelings toward people that are hurting may be different from theirs. I love to help others because I hate to see people sad, I wish everyone the best and wish for happiness upon them even if we are no longer friends.

I also am very forgiving. Now to some this may be a bad thing and for others it may not be. But, as for me, you can do me wrong many times (That’s what sucks is i’m probably too forgiving lol) but I will still forgive you because I try to see the good in everyone. I also forgive so much because I want to move forward from whatever the situation is. I’ve learned that in order to be happy and have peace within myself, I need to be forgiving and move forward because if not, i’m just gonna keep dwelling on the past. I do forgive but I never forget.

Although, one personality trait I do not have is self confidence. I’ve always been the type to compare myself to others always wondering, why don’t I have that nice of a body? Or why am I not as pretty as her? Yeah I know it’s not good to compare yourself but, I have trouble doing that. Although i’m working on it by saying i’m unique and beautiful in my own kind of way.

I told you it was going to be a little bit more deeper than blog 1 lol. Well here’s the end to blog 2 and now you know a little more about me.   

Idk how to start this but I guess I will start off by saying who I am. My name is Leilani, I am 16 years old and I currently go to Monache High. The most common question I get asked by people is how to say my name, and what does it mean. Well my name is pronounced as lay-loni. Yup, It’s easier than it looks! Oh and the meaning of my name is “heavenly flowers; royal child of heaven.” Although my friends and family know me as “Lei” for short.

I’m shy and quiet, but once you get to know me, you know that I looovvveeee to talk and that I laugh at almost everything (I’M NOT JOKING.) Something I get a lot is that I look mean because I have a straight face (a lot of people know it as a b**** look lol) and that I look stuck up, but that once they got to know me I was the total opposite.

A few things I have to say about my high school years is, it was bittersweet. I’ve had some really good times these past 3 years, but I’ve also had some extremely rough times. I always say how much I hate school and how I can’t wait to leave but in reality, I know i don’t want to leave and that i will miss all the crazy/sad/fun times I’ve had. I think the most I will miss about high school is playing volleyball. I’m gonna miss being on the court. I’m gonna miss my teammates who turn out to be family. I’m gonna miss all the memories and bus rides. I’m gonna miss sharing laughs and cheering after every point. I’m going to miss all of that. Some advice I want to give if you play sports is something my coaches would always tell us, “Always give it your all because you never know when it will be your last day playing.” Another thing I will absolutely miss are those Friday night lights and all of the school spirit and the chanting/screaming, hearing “TOUUCHDOWWNNN MARAUDERSSS” and waking up with no voice because of the night before. So believe me when they say that high school is the best.

Well, my work here is done. See you in my next blog 🙂